PAINT ME PURPLE;

//Tuesday, April 08, 2008//1:42 AM

I really really really hate comp selection! People who had train equally as hard or even harder den us may not actually get into the team. Spent most of the time training, hoping to get a space in team but is it worth it in the end? It is true that only e fittest can survive but can anyone imagine the disappointment and resentment felt by the others? Totally understand how it feels like. No matter how much comfort or 'cushion' dat everyone gives, it is still the fact. Out! n dats final. I'm in but because of dat, others are out. The guilt says it all. Is this consider preparation for society next time? The competitiveness of it all..

Feeling quite stressed up all of a sudden. All seems well, but is it really so? Everyone says its a phase dat people will go through but the intensity.. Can't seem to be coping with it well. I need to learn to breathe! Hoooooo.... haha. Hopefully things will get better. yup! 18th Nov! I'm cool wiv it. lol. psychoing myself now.

Being gay is the new coolest thing!

//Wednesday, April 02, 2008//6:54 AM

Tdy went to train at SPANs. go all e way to toa payoh lo. take like ard 2 hrs? e bus ride is super slow. haha. Training was hell! I really dun feel like moving lo. den whole day like kena scolding i also very bu shuang abt myself. Who doesn't want to receive a good ball? like a sian! had a feeling dat everyone is improving except myself. Feeling one of e worst times in vball. :(

Went home wiv foong. haha. We had a kallang scream on the overhead bridge. People were watching but who cares anyway? Haha. Its not good to bottle things up inside. Since we had no time for beaches, lets make do wiv e bridge. had a sudden craving for bubble tea n went ard like idiots asking for e whereabouts of a bubbletea shop. In e end, we went to have milk tea from some ' KOI shop' or smth. Haha. e pearls n e tea were super nice! next training must go drink! lol. On e way home talked alot. like everyone's feeling so tense now and wiv e season coming up,everyones feeling super stressed. Everyday try to act gay is not a good method. Sometimes it just feels good to cry it all out. So lets try be optimistic abt everything k? haha.

Feeling bad for jon. haha. had to put up wiv all my nonsense. He's such a great guy. lol. like dun even mind dat I'm like having a bitch fit or wad. I'm like super guilty or smth. I'm like venting out my frustrations on him n he has to suffer everything. =( I'm sorry! lol. He just made my day~ was feeling down one sms solve it all! e power~ haha.

MBT results!!!////6:44 AM

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like a gay~ Results out le. Not as good as expected. haha. Wiv vball training, din really get much time for revision. so spent e last few days of march hols to chiong, hoping for a miracle to happen. All the jitters n stuff when e results came out. there was a big ovethrow in e class. Auntie was supposed to get first for almost every other thing but this time round the big winner is actually keith! Everyone tio shock lo. haha. Think we all too competitive le. haha. I din really like e feeling of him being e top in e class. =X Of cos die also must be someone from my clique ma.

GP-D
maths - E
Econs - U
Physics - S
Chem - U

Grades really suck lo. To those ppl who score worse, my condolences. But my maths n econs like jump a few grades dwn lo. :( haix.. Need to jia you le! Must have a pretty cert!