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designer`leila-dawnn*
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//Thursday, November 23, 2006//10:30 AM

My frens. I know ur intentions. Thanks for everything. But I'm ok le. Fine~ get it? I have so many ppl to lean on. I've got my gal frens, lemon n wc. even if wc give crap suggestions. haha.. I'm only hoping for e return of a long-lost fren. How hard could it be?


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//Tuesday, November 21, 2006//8:39 PM

Things have change. I'm sure its e memories dat I'm clinging on to so desperately. I'm still not as mature as I thought I am. But I'm learning. I've prepared myself this long. This is the time. the time for me to let go.

If I said I'm not hurt, I'm lying. Still, its just another phase of life. Like it or not, i still have to move on. The world does not revolve around me solely. I just need time. All good things will come to an end. But when the door has closed there'll be another door open for me. There's no use pining for e door dat will never open.

My frens have been protective. All the things around me. All of this i knew. I really am happy to be able to make such a bunch of good frens dat are helping me.Still, being protective ain't helping at all. It'll only make me wallow in self despair. Wad can actually help is to tell me the truth. Let me convince myself I can pass through this difficult phase on my own. Its a mean to help me grow and not to overly rely on u guys.

Ur not a rotten fren. U've helped alot. seriously. I really can't express my gratitude for ur effort. It really din turn out the way u want.But pls dun blame it upon urself. If needed, all this was my fault. I still can't get over it. I've never want u to b stuck between us. Dats y I dun wanna tell u my probs. maybe its not working out for u but u've stick by me till e end n dats wad matters. Our frenship still remains. I've never blame u. cos I know u'll go through the same pain as i have wiv me. All e comfort u've gave. Its enough already. Enough for me to stand up again.

I'm sorry. Sorry for being a total nuisance, sorry for making my frens worry. Sorry for being ur burden.
Don't try to be nice to me. I learn better through the hard way.


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//Monday, November 20, 2006//8:57 AM

Sleepovers! haha.. lol. Have to repost everything. Cos I accidentally delete away my post.



Our choc fountain! The cake we baked!!

The cake is edible! Even my mom said it was nice! haha.. lol. Looks can be deceiving. even it looks weird.. its actually nice. Our choc fountain! haha. Used e wrong type of choc, makes it damn sweet. in e end wasted 5 bars of chocs.haha. n it was damn hard trying to wash e equipments. lol.


The beach is pretty scary at night! haha.. I've been shopping non-stop for 2 days! ahhh! My legs are tired from all the walking. haha.. Met weird ppl at Orchard lo. Dere's dis woman having a veil clipped to e back of e head going ard asking for signatures. haha. Its a mission for her for last day of singlehood. if not, she can't get married. haha. I know wad to do for gv on her wedding day le. den dere's dis shawl woman dat claim she knows miss tang. lol. Claimed dat my hair too untidy if not can go work for her. I'm offended can?! haha..




Why do we look drunk?






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//Sunday, November 19, 2006//9:11 PM

Some idiot freakingly used my home phone no. to do a fucking job. Pls la. You wanna do such things can be smarter not to leave ur things behind not? Now, the floor manager has to call me n complain wad a slut u r. lol. SIngaporeans dat desperate for money ah? Will you stoop so low to do such things? taking this as a part time job?! lol. I feel so disgusted! Fancy doing dat sort of things in a hotel. Yucks! n wads more its wiv 2 guys! 2 guys in a room can? siao! I have no qualms abt u taking on 2 guys at the same time but can dun use my phone no. not? Now ppl r like trying to find u. n the manager thought dat I'm e bimbotic slut. Thanks la. @#%*(&)#(%!!! lol. I wonder wad ur parents will do if they find out. XP


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////7:23 AM

tired*
I thought everything will be ok.
I thought..

never felt so exhausted..
Os is over.
But things have changed.

Even a guy so strong can break down.
Why not me?

The stress level isn'tdecreasing at all.
No happiness after Os.
Only emptiness.

...
Things are not going e way as planned.
We're not gathering together.
We're not being committed..
Wadever crap.
I'm talking rubbish.

All is a dream.
An empty film.
An abandoned cart.
A hollow bottle.

Me no talk enggrissh.. blah.blah..
There's jus no sense no logic to it..

I may just let go. but pls hold on to me. )=
LET ME WAKE UP.


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//Tuesday, November 14, 2006//5:39 AM

Who needs A maths tuition at woodlands?! haha.. I'll get a commission of a free lunch per student? lol.. Later treat me to mac.. eeeww.. dun wan.. 3 more days~ lol..

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//Saturday, November 11, 2006//10:46 PM

News flash: Someone committed suicide near lemon's hse! Lol.. Its apparent dat e hand flew off during e landing?? He landed wiv a loud boom sound. Police still investigating cause of death.

... So wad jon said is true. I thought is a can or smth dat drop. Its a dropping HUMAN! lol.. sad la. For his relatives. stupid guy. commit wad suicide. only make ppl ard sad.

I hate e rain! My room is flooded! My books n notes are wet! WTH. Make my life difficult. My mouse is Soaked n it keeps jamming. DANG! Now I've to clear the mess. Stupid weather.

5 more days! I'm leaving one day after Grad night. There's a chalet waiting for me in m'sia. Where's e time for my goong marathon?! My couz are all staying over at my hse! HOW?! Die!


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//Wednesday, November 08, 2006//12:13 AM

9 more days! GV can't seem to stop suaning me! Like big deal! At least I get my sleep today! XP Eng paper today.. ... got nth to say abt it. As per norm, I finish my paper bt e quality like gt prob. sian.. dun care la. wc is scary. Is either I too fast or he too slow. Damn scared la. he do e papers like so slow. Makes me question my standard only.

One e way home had a convo wiv some parent lo. Her son is p5 while her daughter is in poly. sian. tell me all e good stuffs abt poly. make me waver again. bt now it seems to be a shorter route. lol. I brought a chi dictionary for eng ppr.

Saw chicken little manager in mac again. haha.. His hair style n his specs make him look so totally like a chicken. at least his not a klutz of smth. haha.. Taking orders was like total hell la.. couldn't stop laughing until he himself became self conscious. At least i never suan him. I MERELY agreed to all e suanings by gv. lol..

Sian.. Back to slp.


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//Monday, November 06, 2006//2:16 AM

... E maths was easy. which makes it even more difficult for me to get A1.=( SS.. Hah! I dun really depend on my combined humanities. Its a goner lo. Luckily still have geog to depend on. Shouldn't have spend so much time on e maths lo. DUn even need to study la. Wc was lucky dat merger came out lo. study 1 topic only leh. I dun dare take e risk. blah.. Sleepless nights.. I need bedtime stories from my dad n sis! Dat sounds like so pri sch can. I dun rmbr having sleepless nights for a long time. ;(

My sis got in triple science. *Dunno should be happy or sad for her. happy-She can go become some vet or animal trainer. Sad- how e hell is she gonna cope wiv her humanities? lol.. looking at those ard me is a clear eg. of how deadly is C.H. Hao yang couldn't go into jc cos of C.H la. lol. God bless her lo.

2 down. 12 more to go.
beach-escape-vivocity~ >_<


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//Wednesday, November 01, 2006//9:05 PM

lemon forgot my b'day. Its 4 not 11!!


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////8:52 PM

Great! Now I'm sick 4 days before Os! Haha.. So far I've screwed all my practs n I think i can screw Os also. Much as i wanna go MJC.. haha.. Guess I'll have to settle for tp. Not dat its a bad choice. Maybe should give it a try too. haha.. N I get to go out and work! lol.. My parents will support whatever route I choose for myself. Haha.. Love them lots.

Clar just did a fantastic thing. She invited Rui wen n e rest for a sleepover. At my house. lol. SHouldn't I be e one doing e inviting? haha. She helped me wiv it lo. Not dat I'm complaining. I'm like so budget nowadays. haha.. No need to pay for chalet~ Its 15 More days to sleepover~
haha.. can make it one.

Back to mugging. I jus need to sustain 15 days of motivation. For e last lapse. XP

The Junction.


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