PAINT ME PURPLE;

//Saturday, September 30, 2006//5:12 AM

October is coming! Happy b'day to dad, my 2nd uncle n inez~ haha.. all three r born on e first of Oct! n to e kids- happy children day! esp. to my polar bear darling.. She never gets out of e 3 yr old mindset. Still is babbling nonsensical stuff every now n den. Was writing each other testimonials on friendster. Talked abt some siao polar bear who claims to b almighty n attempted to destroy e orange banana plantation. then came superman who tried to fight e polar bear but in e end went back home in embarassment as he'd wore his briefs inside out again! So paul threehill steps out to sing 'Superman' and got superman(II) out. ok. Its lame but wad else to expect from bored ppl like us?! correction: its actually by a polar bear, banana farmer n brown bear not ppl. lol..

Jus finish a book abt keeping secrets. How nice it would be if there's no secret among everyone.
but dat can never possibly happen. If so, those tabloid reporters will be jobless! N dere'll be no satisfaction for those fans dat r hungry for gossips. people would like to have their own privacy as well.. lol.

was walking down Orchard Road lo. Did one damn malu thing. I screamed in e middle of e road~ cool.. so attention seeking can. thanks to 2 lovely ladies who managed to irritate me beyond tolerance. Its like all heads jerk in e same way n stare at me. Seriously. They stared at me like I'm some deranged goon or smth. n one thing. Never again try e raspberry original. Not dat I'm dissuading ppl but only one word came to my mind when I had my first sip. "YUCKS!" its not for human consumption. so jon n me had thrown our money down e green rubbish bin for nth. Did I mention dat whereever we go, there will be ppl wearing green n gv will look away in disgust?haha.. she absolutely 'loves' green!

When I ask th when's e Singapore biennale gonna end he ans in 2 yrs time. well, jus cos its BIennale, doesn't mean its gonna last for 2 yrs. It happens every other yr ( from wikipedia) The moon's orange tonight! haha.. so nice! I'm going gaga over e moon. Can't believe it when they say dat man being able to step on e moon is a scam lo. haha.. e moon makes me think of li bai. lol.. suddenly feel so poetic. lol...

//Wednesday, September 27, 2006//11:00 PM

Sigh~ If time can fly as fast as I hope it would. I'm gonna shop till I drop tml! Or jus be totally engrossed in a sad novel. New methods to destress.. haha.. can go try..

Be careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. A woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on, not from his head to be superior over, but from his side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved.

//Tuesday, September 26, 2006//4:28 AM

I hate octobers! I'm having october blues now. ( even before oct starts!) Y must so many ppl be born in e month of oct? nth better to do huh? Make me so broke.. =(
I'm bloody pissed ..bloody depressed.. bloody OH WADEVER! feel so in need of blood now. I'm deprived of blood! I want blood! cos I'm sure all blood will drain out of me once I've got back my prelims results. Can't even stop myself from thinking abt it. Day and night! I dreamt abt it too.. Yucks~

I"m gonna be strong. haha. No more emotional breakdowns. must be happy everyday. dats my resolution for e rest of e year. its only 2 more months to go. Its peanuts. :(

Someone murder me

//Saturday, September 23, 2006//11:59 PM

I'm gonna have a free lunch treat from clar! haha.. cos I'll score worse den her~ yayness~ yayness~ yayness~ yayness~ yayness~ yayness~

A really emo post =X//Friday, September 22, 2006//5:05 AM

A really emo post =X

Spill it all out.

Unleash it all.

Dun bottled everything up.

e Words of encouragement.

Is it gonna work?! I highly doubt so.

Standing solely.
The pain is unbearable.
Who knows?!
Who cares?!
Its me and me only.

I once believe in miracles.
I attributed everything to luck.
Now the bubble burst.
I realise I'm left with nothing.
Its still me and me only.

Is things gonna work out for the better?
Or is it gonna come crashing down like before?
I've died once.
Now, I'm dead again.
Once again, repetitive words are best left unsaid.

Thanks to mean lemon for being emo wiv me. Combining our emoness together?! haha..
It sort of helps. lol.

The simple words hit so hard.

Green gives me headache~ =X

//Thursday, September 21, 2006//4:49 AM

Sigh~ A maths is a goner. Actually ALOT of subs r a goner. I just can't do it. I know my concepts (or so I think) but I just can't make use of it! Damn this whole thing. I just can't imagine wads gonna happen during Os.

I guess I'm jus being overly optimistic abt life for e past years. After debating wiv GV, I realise dat maybe I've been picturing e world in a light too good to be true. I'll be like stuck in lalaland and when all dreams r smashed, I'll be thrown into harsh reality. Then will I know dat miracles do not happen. Dat working hard may not get u wad u wanted.

JC~ hah. Yea~ maybe Inova or Yishun. E place where my standard is. Oops! I dun even know whether I can go into a JC. Much say a good one.

hmm.. Which poly should I consider?

The disappointment.

The anguish.

Wad more could I ask for?

//Friday, September 15, 2006//1:10 AM

CARRY ON

At times when you feel troubled
When your happiness is gone
Look to the heart within you
for the strength to carry on.

In your heart you will find special virtues
Such as faith and hope and love.
These gifts have been sent down to you
from a power up above.

It is faith that keeps the soul searching
for the joy the heart hopes for.
It is love that heals the spirit
making it stronger than before.

And if your heart be broken
if your strength should fade away
the power of these virtues
will still win out the day.

So remember when you’re troubled
when happiness is gone
look to the heart within you
for the strength to carry on.

//Tuesday, September 12, 2006//3:54 AM

//Friday, September 08, 2006//8:22 AM

I had a stupid nightmare last night. lol. Stupid clowns. There's like some enemity dat we have. In the dream it was like an arcade or theme park. All those haunted house and stuff. Prob is those dat r ard u dun seem to be real at all. ppl r jus walking blindly. Well, I tried to escape but to no avail. Its like something dats trapping me inside. N when I turn ard who should I c but ronald macdonald! lol. sounds ridiculous la. He's actually a wicked person in my heart. too bad he's a clown. N its till dat part dat I woke up. lol. Guess its jus a combination of the movie 'the park', escape's haunted hse and Macdonald! I knew I shouldn't have went into e haunted hse alone! Now the creeps are coming back.

SJAB BBQ! lol. Upon reaching e pit I'm like drenched?! Heaven's like playing a prank on me la. The weather's like so fine but jus we're about to start u jus have to rain. Thanks alot. at least it din rain for long. Lol. I never knew its so hard to start a fire. After many failed attempts, we managed to get some fire. haha.. I actually can bbq food perfectly well, maybe to compensate my lack of flair for cooking. I can't freakingly cook!

haha.. Felt a sense of accomplishment! I dun usually serve ppl. haha.. It jus seems so nice. TOo bad have to leave at 6. lol. Till e point dat we're leaving we realise dat we've forgotten to return our bikes and its like gone? SO I'd to cycle e remaining bike all e way to find Asther. And it started to rain again. Thanks for adding to my misery. Imagine cycling into puddles of water which splashed up n it was pouring like crazy. Wad luck lo. blahh..

Inevitably, i'll b late for tuition. lol. so still have to take taxi at e end of e day. It takes such a long time to wait for a taxi lo. Talk abt peak time. the taxi driver is like so nice can? lol. bored ma, so talk to him lo. haha. He actually has an arab wife and they had 4 children - 2 boys n gals each! haha. dats like so cool can. I guess they have sharp features. haha.. And he gave lots of advices to me. haha.. Its really seldom dat I had a conversation wiv a total stranger lo. haha.. It feels so weird yet so warm. =D

Pix taken:

on da bus

spasticness

blehh..

same earrings!

Shing shing~ I like dis pix. =D

deep in thoughts~

look so wrong.

Classic!

lolness..

NCO gen '06

The Lengendary Mission

//Monday, September 04, 2006//7:43 AM

Haha.. I'm like looking back at all those past posts and laughing at what horrendous things I used to write. Its nice to be able to vent out all the frustration from within. lol.

Today's a sad day. The 'Croc' man had died! Its like so saddening. I used to watch crocs files lo. Still love all e episodes. Its like kena poke in e heart by e stingray? That's like so painful. Pity him lo. He loved those animals yet his death is caused by them. blah.. Life's unpredictable.

MSN seems to be down on me. It put me as offline even when I'm not. So I can't have any convo. =(
haha.. Lack of sleep nowadays.. Tend to get drowsy quite often. and coffee ain't helping at all! Do your magic! Catch on some sleep first.. haha..

//Friday, September 01, 2006//5:43 AM

Everyone's like studying and being so busy. Life is a total crap nowadays. I don't have the motivation to study! I'm like flunking my subs now? Try harder~ That's wad ppl says. Damn IT! If I can try harder I won't be flunking now and feeling so miserable. I'm like so screwed now. It just seems like you understand your concepts yet you can't do the sums. The irony. BLah..
I'm just having moodswings so don't get close to me. Step on my nerves and i'll be hurling abuses at you. )=

The devil wears prada! Too bad clar can't watch it wiv us. Haha.. Hopefully she gets well soon. There's a new movie: John Tucker must die! lol.. I so badly wanna watch it. haha..
Off to mug~