PAINT ME PURPLE;

//Saturday, December 31, 2005//1:02 PM

Mery X'mas n a happy new year to all.
Lotsa things happen this past year.
Whether it is good happy memories or sad memories, I gues it'll be all tucked neatly into my memory. So I have a blank memory now ta in store things fer de year 2006!

haha.. Clarice b'dae coming in abt erm.. 3 days.
She beside me now.. sleeping ba..
Crashing in at rui wen's house fer de countdown..
Guess most ppl r asleep at a time like this..
Its finally a new year..
I can't believe it.. [yea sure i can]
Last year in sec sch.. 6 more months till i have to hand over my post.
N I'm so damn stressed from all de lectures drilling into my head.
Yucks! Its getting so out of hand.
New year resolution: Try ta work hard fer my CCA n academic results[Its atrocious]

Yesterday painted de room.. Yay! Its in spring green n boy blue.. Its a nice match all in all.. Though we had a few diff opinions on de colours.. But still its fun. Never knew its so hard ta paint de room.. Never try it alone.. Den have ta jump up de cupboards ta paint de top parts.. *Freaky* Got dirty all over.. After dat.. Celebrated my parents wedding anniversary a day earlier.. [Note to all spouses-to-be: Never have ur marriage at de last day of de year. Dun tied ur child to urself when dey could have fun wiv their frens fer de countdown.] Thank God my parents atually allow me ta go wiv my frens dis year..

Played with sparklers jus now..
Heesh! we can't go sentosa ta watch so jus have to make do with our self made *fireworks*!
Its kinda fun actually.. u know.. With ur own frens n stuffs.. Eew! Its so cool..
Had a feast at Rui Wen's hse.. Consider la.. Sparkling juice n stuffs.. mmm..
N yea.. So right now I'm like de boriest person on de earth hus suffering from major insomnia..
Back ta being china's treasure!

//Saturday, December 24, 2005//9:14 AM

Yay! Its christmas! My long-awaiting season of all year. De best way of havin' gifts from ppl. I'm feelin' merry all right. Cos Santa's gonna put my presents in my christmas socks! Haha.. Bought christmas gifts fer wan lin n shi jun. Oops! Left alot more ta go. Not forgetting clar's presentS. The ones I owe her are like piling up.
Earn money on christmas eve is de best day.. yay! At least its better den nth. Went on a shopping spree at junction 8.[saw lollipop~ sadded still working on christmas eve] Though my income is not enough fer two caps!! Haha.. Bought a cap [its purple!!] from 77th Street n a tee[purple n black!] from Newbie~ Its a NEW brand I guess.. I so love it.. Gonna buy de things from Parco next time..[Its de nearest I can get] YepxX.. Plus I got my navy army pants! Woohoo~ Double de fun! Too bad I missed de christmas shows~ God! I was so sure I had it recorded..
One fact dat I hate was dat I bought a liquid eye liner fer nth! I intended ta buy a MASCARA! I'm not sure y.. Turns out ta b an eye liner. I so DO NOT wanna be China's national treasure neither do i like de fact of being tease Dat I've been boxed! LOL! Next time do rmbr ta widen my eyes ta look fer de right thing.
Newbielogy rocks!

//Wednesday, December 21, 2005//6:21 AM

haha.. on MSN with ray. Talking abt how our parents got together.. LOL! He showed me his parents photos when they were younger.. Cool! His mom look de same 'cept for de hairstyle.. Haha.. his dad actually like his mom when they were in secondary n they were classmates! That's like so romantic can. Then fate brought them together again years later and they bore two sons. Ain't that nice? My parents were of long distance relationship.. Wow! actually still can last. haha.

holidays are ending. Not as competent as pam. Din manage to finish my homework. Feeling sad. About academic n CCA. Din manage to do the things I wanted to. No motivation blah..blah.. Speak about it like a million times. Still it don't seem to work anymore.. [not that it has work before] Felt damn useless at de moment. Feel no satisfaction in my job anymore. I'm beginning to lose morale! Together with my team we'll bring SJAB soar to greater heights.Thats what I promise during POP. Seems to me like nth except fer troubles that we've caused throughout this whole year. This is not only de lowest depths for SJAB but for me too. Can't seem to work our magic.. Haiz~.. No matter what. I'll still try my best to lead. [while it lasts]

//Wednesday, December 14, 2005//12:33 AM

//Saturday, December 10, 2005//6:46 AM

Yay! my phone's back in action again. thanks to naz's magical call.. It suddenly shot back to life. Good fer me. Went to find my Aunt's husband-Uncle Shaun(my mom termed him as Uncle Song, haha later he buay song). He juz came back ta Singapore n is going ta Jarkata de next day. My Aunt is at some unknown country working. Workholics.. Dats wad i call dem. Showered me n my sis with gifts! hahaxX.. my favourites.. N I got an early ang bao. Cos dey say dey dun usually remember Chinese New Year in Sydney. So dere xtra money to spend.

Bought a pair of Adidas shoe. Its black with light blue stripes at de sides. Its kinda nice. haha. I'm not going ta SJ next week.. haha.. Me n de shift. Poor Cindy doing de shift alone as Sigit not here.. LOL! Too bad den.

other NCOs going hosp. duty.. Yay! Can get to c de nurses wipe de bums of patients.. [i'm sick!] 5 days a week lehxX.. tiring seh.. oso have to wear full-u.. Like where de hell is my name-tag! I can't find it! Help! Going wiv Naz aish! yay! morning

My relatives coming next week Lo! I dun wanna dem to come.. i'm so sick of their attitude. No offence budden dey really damn kiasu can. Lol! like everything oso want my parents pay! Think My parents print money wan huh. sadded. den maybe have to go Malaysia.. I dun wan! I wan Singapore.. [suddenly so patriotic] * National anthem, stand up* Argh! Din study.. no motivation.. Wei Long still can't teach me! hu ask him live all de way at Woodlands? haha.. My motivator stays so far away.. How de hell to motivate me to study? haiz~.. Still got GV n de others.. nvm.. Buck up fer de O's..

[Hate My Life!!]

//Friday, December 09, 2005//5:15 AM

met with Jian Min pass her de keys.. Like make her go all de way juz to get de keys from me.. [guilty] haha.. met up with clar.. I got a necklace dat is like so Damn NICE n a pair of earrings.. I so loved de necklace now.. Its nice. [except fer de fact dat it is not purple] Went to NSRCC Safra Resort to meet up wiv de guys. HahaxX.. I love de bungalow!! Its so HUGE! Haha.. Later went to swim.. I hate de damn chlorine smell.. Yucks! de Steam Room at de toilet was nice.. makes me wanna slp.. hehexX.. den so misty cannot see each other..
Watch UNDERWORLD at starmovie channel. Itz even more gross den thirteen ghosts lo. de vampire king[I think] kena sliced in de head with his sword.den de guy stared hard while his head juz slip off.. Yucks! den dere's another show where a woman wants to have plastic surgery all over de body la. She like has bigs boobs oreadi still not enugh. Den she wants to do a suction everywhere on her body. So its like the docs draw on her body. den they started poking a long tube inside her thighs den started pushing it in and out.. den it collected a few containers of blood and fats.. its like so disgusting..
Made lots of water bombs.. Not me actually budden I did give moral support. Yay! We split into 2 teams. Me clar dom. Jac ray n sis. My team all damn scheming wan la.. we put de 'bombs' in de freezer n we went to bathe w/out telling them.. haha.. make dem pissed.. LOL!
I'm sho sleepy! help! I wanna sleep.. Still go SJAB later on. Sadded.Heard a story from Benjamin. Think kinda nice.
dere's once a king hu has a dream. he dreamt that he has lost all his teeth wen he was old. He ask fortune teller no. 1 abt his dream. he say dat de king's relatives n loved ones are gonna die before him. He'll be very lonely. The king ,outraged send fortune teller no. 1 to be executed. He ask fortune teller no. 2. Surprisingly, fortune teller no. 2 is richly rewarded. He said dat de king will outlived everyone including his relatives n loved ones n will rule solely on his throne.
Even if de meaning is de same, the ways dat u brought it about can be different.
HahaxX.. think very meaningful.. I'm gona slp now! My bed!!! n baby tigger!!

//Wednesday, December 07, 2005//6:09 AM

HahaxX.. Today training ok larxX.. They did improve which is a good thing. Slowmarch and hormat can do better though.. budden nvm.. at least dere's an improvement.. Ambulance quite weak la.. Foot frill upon 50 get 18 only.. Haiz~ how to win like this? nvm.. Train harder ba.. U guys all can make it one.. Today receive 2 tiggers from shi jun!hahaxX.. Thanks alot.. Love it lotsa.. Sec2s gave me n naz 2 choco cakes each..Hahaxx.. at de end my face has 2 choco stripes!! whee~ so nice of them horxX.. I think so too.. But seriously can c their change of attitude in comp.. My phrase" Muz have faith!!" hahaxX.. NC2 like quite stressed.. sadded.. Advises are wad we can give. De others are all up to dem. Juz hope dey can really have a fair competition among demselves. After dat went ta room.. Alvin's team coming ta practise their performance. small tigger accidentally drop ta de floor den benjamin threaten ta step on it.. Of cos wad de NC1 say in de morning , I prevent it la. so ACCIDENTALLY push his legs back. as he was sitting on 2 sides of de chair he fell off.. ok. Dis my fault..sorry. heesh! later have to carry tiggers all de way back.. Feel very malu(thanks ta shi jun) haha.. think naz is worse off.. went ta STUDY wiv GV.. I actually study.. hahaxX.. yea~ Feel so satisfied.. Tml got chalet wiv de rest of de gang(clar, Jac, Ray,Dom) n my sis.. Yay!!

//Tuesday, December 06, 2005//7:09 AM

wa kaoxX..Tml big day..Dunno wad's gonna happen..Benjamin's gonna come tml YET AGAIN!!I'm getting sick of his attitude.. No! I'm SICK oreadi. Read some of de sec 1s blog.. ok.. NC1's blog.. I tink most of dem read naz blog lo.. Haiz~.. same as dem.. We responded very fiercely.. I can't believe he actually said dat to Asther can! All de leaders actually is hand-picked by me n Cindy. All de cadets are all previously picked by us. We put dem as leader fer a purpose not fer nth. We have known dem better den him. We know wad r their strengths n weaknesses. He cannot juz picked out de team based on their attendance n only a few glimpse of them. Now how dare he demoralise OUR cadets! Wad he did not only demoralise de cadets but oso us. I juz couldn't stand it any longer. Hu de hell he think he is. Coming to sjab n creating havocs? Wads his problem? Attitude problem? He's still on de RESERVE list! he's nth but a reserve. Ask us dun call him sir. Wad treating him as a fren.. All dis r crap! Bull shit! You dun deserve my respect-our respect. You think you can control us? You think dey will be willing to accept all de craps u said? Let me tell You! NO.. You can go n F*** off and no one will care! We thought of u as our senior n hope u could respect us too. Our OPINIONS! Did u? NO! Never had a chance to express wad we had felt. Never a chance ta ask de cadets wad dey feel? Have u ask Joseph anything? Do u tink Joseph would have agreed? Did u tink dat de NCOs would agree wiv u? Did you ever tried asking wad we wanted?No to everything.. Nothing.. Nothing at all. You know I was damn shocked wen u announced de change of groups dat day? I tried reasoning with you. Of cos I failed. Cos if I had suceeded, de cadets wun b in dis state. Wad abt de phrase "Desperation turns to Hope"? So u think putting two loggerheads together in a team dey can trash everything out among each other n become great frens? I'm disappointed at ur lack of thinking. One should know wad u had gone through. Did you guys became great frens? NO! So quit instilling dis shit crap ta de cadets. No use brainwashing dem.. So wad u can guarantee dem a trophy? Do u think dey will be happy? So you wanted SJAB ta take sides? You wanted dem ta compete wiv each other till both teams r gonna perish together? Wad abt de crap of having a SJAB family? I wanted unity among all levels. You wanted to turn them against each other! Wishful thinking! Fat chance!

TO all cadets. whether you're in any groups. Remember. Always have faith in yourself. Dats wad I practised in SJAb wif my team. Dats de key point how we proved to BEnjamin. Dun care wad de others say. Listen to wad u say. Wad ur team says. Dat's wad important! I dun care whether you r No. 1 or No.5 .. As long as U're a SJAB member I care fer u.
Key point is to win urself. Not de competition.. In my hearts. You guys r already winners!

//Monday, December 05, 2005//8:08 AM

yay! Today went ta make my I/C.. Early in de morning wake up go lavender.. *Damn sick of dat place* Go dere take pic.. Dun noe where de place did GV says got no ppl wan.. Wait fer a very long queue before my turn.. Smile:D haha.. Den have to wait fer my turn.. Den de receptionist ask alot of qns lo.. Den take my thumb prints.. LohxX.. Later went ta gran's hse.. Both couz all dere.. watch a damn sadistic series of stickman deaths at www.stickdeath.com .

Went ta watch HARRY POTTER Again.. It really wasn't as nice as before.. Wads de use of watching a show dat has almost 3/4 of de scenes cut?Wads more itz raining n I'm like sho drenched! De cinema is cold la~ Thanks ta kor dat kept me awake..Later went to Sakura at sowntown east fer dinner.. ok.. their sushi was not bad la.. Budden variety not as much as Paris Buffet.. My dad has a fetish fer MUSSELS!:P Yucks! It has a distinctive disgusting smell in it.. (Completely put me off) Sad thing is.. Dere's no cheesey hotdog! My NOW all time favourite!

After dat went ta de library.. After dat found out I lost my wallet! As usual.. Had a fair share of scolding from my dad.. As I like ta use my wallet ta book de table.. Den now lost.. So. I'm regretting.. But wads de use of cryin' over split milk?! Started our quarrel on de way back.. Not sure whether itz my b'dae or is it cos of de shiny star dat I saw.. My wallet is actually found at Sakura.. Rushed back dere ta pick my wallet.. yay! Itz not cos of de money inside dat I'm worried.. But my neoprints wiv my bez frens!! Its One n only one Original!! haha.. Try my hardest ta keep track of my belongings nx time.. Gee~ dats hard..

//Sunday, December 04, 2005//12:49 AM

yay! I'm 15 at last.. Cos todays my birthday!! So damn happy can. I'm like feeling more matured lo.. REally thanks ta de ppl dat wished me happie birthday:

GV Naz clar ray aish bea pei yun HX li wei han ying cindy yili and shi jun..

Thanks alot ppl.. Happy birthday ta Justine n pei pei maam oso whose birthday is juz b'fore n after my birthday respectively. Happy B'dae ta naz too.. One week later her b'dae..

Another piece of GOOD NEWS!

I no need go back fer re-exams!! Yay! I'm so happy yesterday.. Good fer ray oso.. Good luck fer GV clar naz HX n class ppl whose going fer their re-exam.. Study hard ppl n you'll excel.. *I promise ta study with GV* Yikes! I still lack de motivation dat I need.. hope dat I can focus now at de later part of de holidays to study! Can't afford to play in a time like this.. Have fun ppl!

Mature liaoxX!

//Friday, December 02, 2005//5:47 AM

I'm sad.. Don't ask me why.. I'm just sad. I dunno wad de hell is happening in my life. It totally suck.. ( I know naz's life is suckier den mine la.. HEhExX..) well, things do not happen to what I ACTUALLY wanted them to be

I did not study AT ALL for next year's Os.. Dunno how de hell I'm gonna cope next year.. JC dream dashed long time ago. I dun even wanna think about leaving TMS. Thanks to Miss Morni's words"With your results i dun even think can go poly let alone smell JC." Itz like WTF.. Got this kind of teacher that demoralise the student.. Of cos my results ka na sai! I know cannot blame her la.. Budden this kind of teacher not fit to teach us lo.. Pity my whole class can!

I flunk BLS which made me flunk AFA too. This is actually de factor that made me lose faith in SJAB. Like the sir there look at us den us whether we from comp team. Den like" haiz~ Like that confirm lose wan" Give us a CMI face. Like since I fail I believe I am not fit to do first aid.. Believe me.. That's wad I felt there and then. I even almost wanna quit SJAB then. Haiz~ De only person there that understand the disappointment in me is naz. Cindy n ais.. U guys juz dun understand at all. Try putting in effort in something while u DON'T reap wad u sow. SADDED right?! Haiz~ Another downhill in SJAB..

Worst disappointment ever~ Who de hell suggest to change de cadets' grouping? And why de hell do we know of it last min? This is Goddamn UNFAIR!! ITz not only unfair to de cadets but also to the NCOs n Alvin too! Benjamin~ I dun care whether you read this or not! So what if you're our senior. So what if you're a police. So what if you can have de sec 1s at your beck and call?! So what if you can teach them?! Let me tell YOU this.. All this is still not enough to cover for your stupid attitude.. All you see is the trophy.. Nothing else. U dun even care whether de cadets like it or not. Some is feelin so stressed that they cry.. Have you once consider their felling? let me tell you your method won't work.. It never will.. Soon you shall see..

Sadded..